It's Wednesday, or in Ashley's words the third Monday of this week.
This week's real Monday, was opening day for the Chicago Cubs.
I was working from home, stressed because it's just been one of "those weeks" from the start. Simple things have gone wrong, big things have gone wrong, we're short handed, sleep deprived, tired, you get the idea.
That said, the good thing about working from home, especially when you're doing data entry is that it's easy to have the TV on too. I was watching highlights of opening day when an interview with a player from the Cubs came on. I don't know who he is or even exactly what was said but he did say something that caught my attention.
He said (and again I'm paraphrasing) that he tries not to get too worked up about just one game (they won 9-0) because over the course of the season you'll win some and you'll lose some but regardless of the outcome you still need to take the field the next day.
Again I'm not sure exactly what was said or even who said it but I needed to hear it. I was in a moment of self pity and aggravation and as it can be all too easy to do I just wanted to throw in the towel.
His words reminded me that it was okay to "lose" a game, to lose an account, to have a bad day. It is okay, because tomorrow is coming. And tomorrow I might win.
I don't know this man but I'm sure if you asked him that night, after a substantial win, if he would still love baseball tomorrow, he would have said yes. The thing about it is, is that if they had lost 0-9, I don't think his answer would have been different.
Some games, some days, some weeks are going to suck. They just are. I obviously don't play professional baseball but if vending is my "game" I still love it. I'll still love it tomorrow and next week too.
If you're having one of those days, weeks, months. I hope tomorrow is better.
To try to help I'd like to share one practical thing I've started doing recently. It's called a 5 minute thought download. I stole it from a podcast I was listening to and the idea is that our thoughts can be our own worst enemy. We can easily get caught in a negative tornado of emotions so writing down your thoughts is a good way to stop the spinning. After you write down the thoughts/emotions you write down the facts as a polite reality check.
Here is a sample from earlier last month that I did in my planner in a parking garage before going to a meeting (judge my "have to's" if you will but I was leaving the next day for Spring Training):
Today I am feeling overwhelmed, that I'm bad at scheduling, that I let people down, that people are having to do too much for me, that there is too much to do. That I am inadequate. I leave too much. I am trying to do much. I want too much.
In reality, these are the things I HAVE to do today:
1. 2 Meetings in SF (not your fault an hour drive took 2 hours)
2. pick up coffee
3. Bday lunch with grandma
4. Deliver Kerry Ingredients
5. Get Nails Done
6. Do laundry
I ended up pulling my first all-niter since college that night (my work "have to's" before leaving town ended up being a lot more than I had written down in the car) but just writing everything down made me feel so much better and I was calm long enough to get my nails painted a subtle orange to rep my favorite team.