Updated: Aug 6, 2020
You guys I've been in a funk lately. Anyone else? 2020 has been a major shake up. I'm not complaining, in a lot of ways it was necessary, but good or not, it has been hard.
Things I've realized:
I've put way too much of my identity into my work
I've been shamefully unaware and ignorant to the struggles of people around me
I've prioritized the wrong things
For all the self-help books I've read, reading alone isn't the work, consistently applying what you've read is where the work comes in
Things I still need to figure out:
If my identity isn't in my work, how do I honor the work and the commitment to the company who employees me, while not finding my identity in it
As I become more aware of the injustices in this world, what am I going to do to actively participate in change
What are the right things to prioritize (in a very practical way)
Since I can't realistically apply it ALL, what from my self-help books do I want to actually be consistent in
Consistency is one of those things that shows up a lot in my life. And by that, I mean, my lack of consistency causes some issues. So...I'm looking to change that. I don't know exactly how to figure out the bullets listed above but I do believe the answers will come if I consistently pursue the answers, if I consistently put in the work.
I'm feeling a little lost these day, a little unsure about what to do next or what the future holds. Maybe it's an early midlife crisis, (I mean I was diagnosed with osteoporosis at 33 why can't I have a midlife crisis at 34?), maybe it's a result of the great rug of 2020 being pulled from under all of our feet, whatever the cause the only thing I can think to do right now, is finish what I started.
I'm using some extra time to clean up the website, to finish old show notes, to dig into new interviews. Someone once asked me why I love doing the podcast. I replied by saying, "did you ever play Mario Brothers? You know when you would come across a character, you could push the "A" button and they would give you a clue about what to do next? I feel like that every time I have an interview; it's like every guest is a guide, helping me on my journey."
So I'm going to start here. Finishing what I started, hoping it leads me to where I'm supposed to go next.
In Episode 44 of The Vendor's Daughter, after Ryan and I share some marital pet peeves, I dig into why it's easier to maintain the hard work than to start over. I recorded this shortly after we moved to Austin (a little over a year ago). At that time, as you'll hear, I was also going through a funk, brought on by a major life transition and some weight gain. I think the advice then was just as applicable as it is now, "don't get bored doing the things you know you need to do."